i know im slow. but i just finished reading the half blood prince tht chow lent me n oh boyyyy did it have the saddest ending! i was actually tearing! oh my. i never thought he wld die -frowns- anw. i was tinkg back to the time when chow n i were freezing our asses off ata wteva sailing republic god knws wat club of hers inta wee hrs of the morn.. ahahhah. im glad she stayed behind n forced me to walk with her. we both agreed tht sucha place was breathtaking in its simplicity and remarkably soothing despite the strong currents tht rocked this wooden plank wteva ting we were trying to balance on. it was good just lying there.. the cool wind (a bit tooo cold tho we were shivering) blowing the clouds away at such an alarming rate. the sea water lapping .. okay nowhere near our feet but it was close enuf (: and us just lying there.. dehydrating (we forgot to bring water) .. cut off fr the busy glaring lights n all the hustles n bustles.. it was wonderful to know that ure not cut away fr reality (i mean we can still see e lights right) but more like we are taking a step back and enjoying the cool night breeze and the quiet tht we hfnt experienced in a long time. altho we went there mainly cz i was feeling like.. well okay.. shit. it occured to me tht chow n i hfnt relaxed n enjoyed each others company in sucha quiet and amazingly tranquil place or environment b4. i mean we usually bimbo each other to death or dance n shout ard like uncouth n mildly insane ladies and spend most of our time outwitting gossiping singing and most definitely laughing at/to each other. we talked abt all we felt and thought abt.. all the people that we miss/love/bother us.. we talked abt how times haf changed.. what was and what is.. we shuddered at the thought of what lies ahead. we did really stupid tings of cz.. i mean its only natural for us to do tht! haha seriously chow.. ill nv forget the stupid up down actions (which look really.. wrong n um.. SEX-y) ahaha. and the tune tht was hummed along with it. ahhaa it was a fantastic workout nonetheless. now i understand how sex can be a totally great workout.. i mean not tht we were doin netg illicit tht night of course. we're both straight (sometimes v debatable depending on object) and also exceedingly innocent beyond words.. we were merely doin certain moves tht seemed a lil.. uncalled for. hahaha (: tink we spent a total of 3hrs there? i cant rmb. ahha one ting for sure. we both enjoyed our time there more than we wld haf been at zouk. shuo was advising me to let zouk be an outlet for my sadness but i knw it wld only provide me temporary relief.. and tht aft tt i wld feel ultimately much worse off than i felt before. (mainly due to my reasons being upset of cz which up to date still only chow knws) hai . in addition to my sadness i felt tremendous guilt tht aft so much badgering by chow n shuo i still adamently refused to go n tht inta chow din go too (tho i told her to go if she wants to) oh well. chow we def hafta tk another walk there soon! its amazing! and u hfta sail me soon! haha in ure bucket! or did u call it a bath tub? hahaa (: i learnt more abt sailing than i ever knew in my life! thks to chows introductions and explanations while we were walking ard tht place (: anw i tink one reason why chow n i haf sucha.. strange lovelife is tht our expectations are set too high. n we both agreed tht it is due to all the Nora R. and Judith Mc bks we read. (which i found out rarah reads too!) our perfect dream guy wld be someone who is cheeky.. who makes u laugh n sometimes cry.. who bullies u ard a lil n lets u bully him back.. one tht is gentle yet rough.. who argues with you n fights you if necessary..has to be witty.. very very witty and smart.. someone who will mk u teether on the edge of..hmm (: someone tall dark and handsome wita killer smile cldnt hurt either -winks- and definitely someone who is not an introvert.. not a big headed jack ass.. n is not passive or feeble minded. well the guy tht chow n i haf described above is obviously unattainable as we haf just described almost all the guys in JM or NR's books but oh well (: any guy close to perfect would be just fine (: (: (:


///chow : really wanna thk u for accompanying me tht night even tho i already did (: i cheered up a great deal n did not tink back to my probs again. i really really really enjoyed the walk so tk tis as a super big hint to jio me to walk there again k? ure the best bimbotikly alike fren ill ever have. lets cont messing up hall life and making other peoples lives miserable.. shall we? (: cheers to kbox tanning bridge food life our common frens and the men we threw away n the men we desire to have!!! (: